Tuesday 28 July 2020

A beautiful day in the neighbourhood

               So I watched 'A beautiful day in the neighbourhood' and loved it (very)^n much ❤️

               The movie revolves around a journalist who interviews TV host (reductive title for the sake of brevity, because the man is so much more 😅) Fred Rogers to write a profile of him.

               One of my most favourite quotes from the movie: Anything human is mentionable; anything mentionable is manageable.

               I learnt that the movie is based on a true story, and so, went looking for the original profile written by Tom Junod in 1998, and wasn't disappointed: https://www.esquire.com/entertainment/tv/a27134/can-you-say-hero-esq1198/

               The profile mirrors the style of the show that Fred Rogers hosted, which I find befitting.

               These are some of my favourite snippets from the article.


1. Mister Rogers agreed to write a chapter for a book the ophthalmologists were putting together—a chapter about what other ophthalmologists could do to calm the children who came to their offices. Because Mister Rogers is such a busy man, however, he could not write the chapter himself, and he asked a woman who worked for him to write it instead. She worked very hard at writing the chapter, until one day she showed what she had written to Mister Rogers, who read it and crossed it all out and wrote a sentence addressed directly to the doctors who would be reading it: "You were a child once, too."

2. Mister Rogers weighed 143 pounds because he has weighed 143 pounds as long as he has been Mister Rogers, because once upon a time, around thirty-one years ago, Mister Rogers stepped on a scale, and the scale told him that Mister Rogers weighs 143 pounds. No, not that he weighed 143 pounds, but that he weighs 143 pounds…. And so, every day, Mister Rogers refuses to do anything that would make his weight change—he neither drinks, nor smokes, nor eats flesh of any kind, nor goes to bed late at night, nor sleeps late in the morning, nor even watches television—and every morning, when he swims, he steps on a scale in his bathing suit and his bathing cap and his goggles, and the scale tells him that he weighs 143 pounds.

3. [...] when his station wagon stopped in traffic next to a bus stop, he read aloud the advertisement of an airline trying to push its international service. "Hmmm," Mister Rogers said, "that's a strange ad. 'Most people think of us as a great domestic airline. We hate that.' Hmmm. Hate is such a strong word to use so lightly. If they can hate something like that, you wonder how easy it would be for them to hate something more important."

4. Then the car stopped on Thirty-fourth Street, in front of the escalators leading down to the station, and when the doors opened—"Holy shit! It's Mister Fucking Rogers!"—he turned into Mister Fucking Rogers. This was not a bad thing, however, because he was in New York, and in New York it's not an insult to be called Mister Fucking Anything. In fact, it's an honorific. An honorific is what people call you when they respect you, and the moment Mister Rogers got out of the car, people wouldn't stay the fuck away from him, they respected him so much.

5. The little boy with the big sword did not watch Mister Rogers. In fact, the little boy with the big sword didn't know who Mister Rogers was, and so when Mister Rogers knelt down in front of him, the little boy with the big sword looked past him and through him, and when Mister Rogers said, "Oh, my, that's a big sword you have," the boy didn't answer

[...]

Mommy said, "Do you want to give Mister Rogers a hug, honey?" But the boy was shaking his head no, and Mister Rogers was sneaking his face past the big sword and the armor of the little boy's eyes and whispering something in his ear—something that, while not changing his mind about the hug, made the little boy look at Mister Rogers in a new way, with the eyes of a child at last, and nod his head yes.

We were heading back to his apartment in a taxi when I asked him what he had said.

"Oh, I just knew that whenever you see a little boy carrying something like that, it means that he wants to show people that he's strong on the outside. I just wanted to let him know that he was strong on the inside, too. And so that's what I told him. I said, 'Do you know that you're strong on the inside, too?' Maybe it was something he needed to hear."

6. Once upon a time, there was a little boy born blind, and so, defenseless in the world, he suffered the abuses of the defenseless, and when he grew up and became a man, he looked back and realized that he'd had no childhood at all, and that if he were ever to have a childhood, he would have to start having it now, in his forties.

[...]

Until one night, Mister Rogers came to him, in what he calls a visitation—"I was dreaming, but I was awake"—and offered to teach him how to pray.

"But Mister Rogers, I can't pray," Joybubbles said, "because every time I try to pray, I forget the words."

"I know that," Mister Rogers said, "and that's why the prayer I'm going to teach you has only three words."

"What prayer is that, Mister Rogers? What kind of prayer has only three words?"

"Thank you, God," Mister Rogers said.

7. Once upon a time, a man named Fred Rogers decided that he wanted to live in heaven. Heaven is the place where good people go when they die, but this man, Fred Rogers, didn't want to go to heaven; he wanted to live in heaven, here, now, in this world, and so one day, when he was talking about all the people he had loved in this life, he looked at me and said, "The connections we make in the course of a life—maybe that's what heaven is, Tom. We make so many connections here on earth. Look at us—I've just met you, but I'm investing in who you are and who you will be, and I can't help it."


               Fred Rogers seems like such an amazing person - in the words of Tom Junod, 'an ecstatic ascetic' - someone to emulate ❤️

Friday 3 July 2020

Tribalism: in politics and in Ludo

So I was playing Ludo with my brother and his friends. At one point, I noticed I hesitated for a brief moment before taking out my brother's coin! It was reflexive and fleeting, and I eventually did take his coin out, but the absurdity of it didn't fail to register. First, this was a game we were playing, with literally no real-life implications. What was the source of this instinct to 'favour' someone I knew over someone I didn't? Second, this had never happened when it was just my siblings and I playing - then, I was happy to play to win. No sympathy.
And so, I caught myself making the 'one's own' vs. 'other' distinction, (however inconsequential/harmless): one of the prime reasons why I'd vilified in my mind, people who over-identify with their religious/national/linguistic/other identities to the point of being tribal and lacking in empathy for anyone who doesn't share those identities.
And then, sort of serendipitously, I stumbled on this altogether brilliant Waitbutwhy article (https://waitbutwhy.com/2019/08/giants.html) which answered a lot of questions/mentioned a lot of observations I've been ruminating about for a while now. In it, Tim Urban does an excellent job of unpacking 'innate tribalism', with insights from evolutionary psychology.
Among other things, he notes that this is probably a remnant of our tribal past: an age when tribe support was utterly essential for survival. A time when it paid to 'lionize members of 'Us' and demonize members of 'Them''; when conformity earned security; when selective kindness aided survival.
Now just to be sure, these are all just explanations for tribal behaviour, not excuses for malignant discrimination/prejudice. Police brutality (which caused George Floyd, Breonna Taylor and many many others to die), hate crimes and zealotry leave me feeling viscerally gutted, and then cynical and resigned. But this article, I found assuring, because if we can become aware of what drives our behaviour, then maybe there's hope for change.
I guess now noone will be left wondering why I'm taking too long to roll the dice while playing: I am psychoanalyzing my every move.